What's in a Name?

I have started doing videos now. I believe I informed you all of that in my last blog, but I don't ave a transcript for my most recent video. As you can tell between the two, the first was scripted and the second was not. I'm hoping to develop my style and my ability to talk as if I'm talking with friends when I do them. Here's what I need though: IDEAS. Things to talk about, questions to answer. Anything. I want it to be more of an adventure we take together than solely a look into the life of a trans person. So, please, comment on my videos, message me on facebook/twitter, call me, text me...just be a part of this amazing adventure we should go on together. Own it. Own it hard. Watch my latest video. 

Names. What's in a name besides consonants, vowels and maybe the occasional punctuation. It's very important to pick a name that is you, that fits who you are and who you want to be. I picked Colby because it fit better than the other names I played around with for at least 4 years. I settled on James for my middle name because of my grandfather. He was a hero of mine when I was growing up. I really wanted to be like him when I grew up. And an unknown fact: Richardson comes from Anita, the woman he was married to when my mom was adopted. I didn't like the way Colby sounded with Burns (my dad's last name) or Garner (my mom's last name) so I went for a name that goes back to the beginning of my lineage that fits and made sense to me. I liked the initials CJR better, too. CoJaRi Productions also sounds a lot better to me. :)

Everyone sees and hears and remembers and associates names differently. I didn't choose James as a first name because James ALWAYS reminds me of James and the Giant Peach and takes me back to when I was 10 and visited my dad in Kansas for the first time. Not a bad memory, but not one I want to think of every single time I hear my name. When I hear the name Colby, I think of myself. I think of the moment that I saw my name written out for the first time by myself, again when I got my social security card, the first piece of mail I got...and I remember the first time anyone called me Colby...and the first time I heard my full name. Names mean different things to everyone. To me, Colby means loyalty, honesty, humor, sincerity, challenge, love, friendship, strength, courage, independence, crazy, adventure, family, determination. Colby means Me.